Love. Everyone seems to want to have it but not everyone really finds it.At least not the kind that seems to last forever after.
It's the same vicious cycle.Boy meets girl.Girl falls in love.Boy leaves her.Girl's heart is left broken.So bad that it would take a whole universe to trust someone again and then want to go through that vicious cycle of going through the motion and yet get hurt...over and over again.
We never stop. Yes. Us. The ones who believe in finding true love. The ones who never give up on hope that one day...maybe someday...we will finally find that one person who will never ever hurt us and leave us. The one that finally puts fantasy into pure reality - that love does exist for forever after.
But then yet again, alas, because life is never like fairytale storybooks and does not really come with a guaranteed happy ending, we fall and then we get our hearts...broken. Yet.Again.
Letting go is never easy. It's frustrating. I feel whenever I let go, a part of me goes away. A part of me gets lost. Somewhere.For nothing. Sometimes I wish I belonged in a society where love does not exist. Then maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't be hurting. This bad.
Today I had to let go of something I thought would last forever. Yes - the kind that had a storybook happy ending. It happened so fast. I didn't even know how someone can just throw away something that seemed so solid, so real - just like that. Today I finally realized that love probably shouldn't exist in my heart.Maybe, just maybe, it didn't have to hurt this bad.
So goodbye to you. Yes you - the one who just broke my heart. I have given you the best that I possibly could and never really asked and expected for much. I just loved loving you and didn't really ask for much in return. Maybe that's why it was easy for you to just let go...all because I never asked for anything much. Maybe you felt you never really had to try. So hard.
I pray to God you never love as much as I have loved you, only to get hurt and broken in the end. Thank you for loving me and thank you for giving me the chance to love you the best way I possibly could. I wish you only the best and hope that when you find her, you never have to break her heart the way you did mine.
TOday I am letting you go. Today I promise myself that despite all the hurt and pain that I have inside me, I will not let that stop from opening myself up to other opportunities to build a solid relationship. Yes. The kind that lasts forever after. Maybe, just maybe, one day. I may never ever have to cry and hurt like this, ever again.
